February 20, 2021
Haven't been practicing consistently the past week & haven't touched album repertoire for some week(s)?
except for 2 Eusebius movements of Davidsbündlertänze (to cry with...)
I just announced my first all-Schumann endeavor and I've already cried once from pressure (from myself) to bring in an audience yesterday.
I'm so invested in bringing audiences to Schumann, never before have I taken it so personally.
After playing through entire C. Schumann Sonata and then immediately Davidsbündlertänze,
I feel 2 pressures/challenges,
1) To make it understandable in performance for audiences because D is so long & all over the place. In the middle of playing, I really wonder how can one follow his music at a concert...
2) To draw in audience - those who don't love Schumann as I do - to Schumann's music through YouTube...
Also, I need to work on my stamina to survive playing twice 80 minute program in Dresden...
[Spoiler alert: this concert got canceled]
And while playing, I kept thinking, I have to read Jean Paul's Vult brothers to understand Eusebius/Florestan & Schumann's passion better.
I also forgot to document that 2 weeks ago, I got curious about why Schumann loved Schubert & his 4 hand rondo so much from reading his letters. Made a video about my exploration & people seem to love it. Problem is how to continue without annoying people about how much I love Schumann...